bryana faust

dear bryana faust,


yellow,sister!

training room,a beaver and a walrus

remember the first day when our paths crossed,we didn't click.we were and are (now and forever) totally opposites and so i could not figure out how we became something like "a spoon and a fork ", anyway i don't really (somehow,there were moments got me thinking,when you were mean to me 
Ü ) dig and question the how's and why's,like how and why there is this hell-of-a- bond between us, not like of mighty bond or james bond nor security bond,but more of like a bond of minds,souls, bodies (eew!), positivism, negativism,and lots of sensibilities and non sensitivities,i know you understand what i am trying to say,because you are one of those human beings who can or if not will still go out of his/her way to understand me, even i to myself can't..


going back,you had your own little pals then and i was on my own or i was on the other side of the fence,like you were saying i was with the geeks and you were with coolest peeps, and i was like Oh-K!, as i have always known that you have the narcissistic acts but at the same time you are unsecured beautiful freak.then suddenly after some months of being seat mates and you introduced me to liveleak,debra wilson,you made fun of me like i was bjork etc,and so we fell apart for quite some time as our careers prospered and so you were busy doing your own thing and again, i was put on the other side of the fence doing my own things.now when you look back at those times you vividly remember how weirdo i was,with the clothes i put on (come on bryana, as if you were a supermodel back in 2007).then,without our control our world collapsed and you decided to leave and i even gave you my boo doll ( that  precious $19 boo doll,she is the cutest and the fairest doll, where is she now bryana?argh!) and but i was the first one to kick out and waved my goodbye,and took our final shots of bff's pics.(i'm going to check my multiply site,to post our old pics)


moving on,for two years we lost touch,thanks to sms,we did manage to connect our lines and once in a while exchanged some hi's and hello's and some strange,short sharing of thoughts....and good thing i decided to keep a cellphone,remember?when i was not a fan of mobile& technology and for a year and so i had free-phone- hands.and so that was the shortest way how i could tell how we all started-------minus the drama,the chaos,the circles,the endings and beginnings (because if i would 
include them,it'll be an epic book).

our first meet after almost two years....

so what this letter is all about, i dunno,maybe i've nothing else to do and i remember  when you told me i haven't written a poem for you.and not because you don't inspire me to write but my tee a tee with you is always like a non written poetic art,you get that?its moving and flowing and it has its own verses and topics and climax and body and lessons.

you hate this picture,that's why i include this

so back late in  2009 we hit it off,we both attended a mass together and so we ate blizzard and asked me if i had facebook page (i told you i didn't,then milky created one for me like i was the last person on earth not to have it,and most of my profile pics would have you) and so we planned out of our new lives,we rose,we began and we got our lives back together and god added few kind souls to help us through,even we both know that god gets nothing from us because we are both stubborn and unkind but we know we are both work in progress;we are willing to undergo the process and we both wish that we go to heaven someday.



i always tell you,that your IQ is way better than mine but my EQ is wider (100% fact),you are good in facts and f.y.i's and all i can share would be mostly what i heard and saw.i snore but you snore harder/i love pesto and carbonara but you love them more and eat more;you think you can beat me on the badminton court or at the running field,think again;yes you  are the music know-it-all,and all i have on my playlist would be some indie-no namer artistes;you don't trust me when it comes to  time nor you just simply don't trust me when we have our planned dates because you know how fickle minded i am and so i hate you how you are so firm on your judgement and that even me (your bestest) you no longer even trust.we both love oprah,that's something.you saw me drunk and you never left,and i know i'll never see you drunk because you have a bad ass liver.your ex boyfriend always text me and i feel like i should not be meddling on your love life.i'm lazy checking my phone but mind you, when i'm in the mood of messaging your reply is just a single letter or two (K or OK!,hate you)you are the only opposite sex who has slept on my bed;you are a gossip and i am your fan in that department;you think you are a bitch because you feel good,but you know what,you are not, i know its all nothing but an act(bravo you always play it well!);you think i am a drama queen,i agree because my life is full of it and so thank you for being an active participant in my drama series.most of the time we disagree in  lots of things,but the fine line that makes our friendship knot tighter  despite wars,bombs and total contradictions, that's aretha's R.E.S.P.E.C.T.,that's one of our foundations.


to be continued....