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ive been wanting to create a poem

but whenever i try to let it all out

i couldnt find words to describe how things are

all i know is that my thoughts are scattered and my feelings are tattered  

and i am suddenly bothered , barred

and blurred

you came along with no warning though God knows ive been praying

secretly ive been searching,unknowingly ive been asking and somehow ive been digging the earth for signs and answers,believing that someone is out there;

but little did i know that it'll be that complex ,though it'll be a simple snap wherein life is rearranging,time unfolding and everything is falling into its own place..like a magical thing like the beginning of happy ending...yet i am now beginning to understand that its a complex beginning...

The plants on the side of the window pane

Thats a still life picture on my phone

Reminds me of the day we were together

and the time we shared hoping for a forever

I know I am not the sweetest lady you have met nor the lovable woman, that for some reason you manage to keep your butt stick beside me and show how you adore me

I don't know why i am crying and hoping for tomorrow to come to see you in the church

I woke around 6:30pm and i wasn't sure if the sound of the TV that bothered me up or just the sound of my heart that i instantly checked my phone to see if your name would appear for whatever reason that you might have dropped me a message..

I am still fighting myself if this is love or just pure and plain excitement that someone like you came to my life without warning and started to shake my  boat in the sea of solitude

there is this feeling of doubt that i am not sure where is rooting,and i am praying that God would help me take that out and so things will be just you and me,simple

I no longer listen to the love songs which i used to,i am tuned up listening to my heart and seeing how this semi- relationship goes just like any love song

its now 7:04 and i couldn't sleep,thinking about you,about us and the days we had,the tomorrow and realizing that when i'm with you,literally beside you,i'm acting stupid and snobbish or you with me...

you always say that i am mean to you but kind to everybody else,and i just laugh it of because i know its not true or hopefully you really don't mean that

i hated when you kept on pushing me to tell you the magic words;i felt bad when you asked for a establish date of this relationship;i was so blacked out when you wanted to make things finite between the two of us;most of all i got sad when i couldn't hang on with your rules because i wanted to play  mine...

you call me baby,and i find it funny,a bit i dont like it but i like it more than you calling me by my name...

I no longer want to continue this poem

because it'll be endless,the flow of words will go on and on and on...i just simply want to let you know i appreciate and love you...and i still want to go on with this kind of set up...like dropping the label nor the status to call what we have right now because for the simple reason that you are my workmate..i simply find it complicated...if ever you find yourself throwing it all away because you can't stand it anymore,i'll be sad but i guess things are bound to end because we make it happen its something i hate as a fact of life but i am ready to take...just let me know but i'd like you to keep a promise and so do i that we'll be friends till the end, a real boy friend and i am your real girl friend.)